Yesterday, the prompt for NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month) was this: What is the most controversial thing you’ve ever written on your blog? What compelled you to write it? And as per usual, I don’t always write based on the daily prompt, and when I do, it’s not usually on the actual day I was supposed to. […]
Loving Through Silence and Disconnect
Did you know that this blog, Life’s a Disco Ball, is my third blog? I started blogging in 2007, albeit not with any consistency. I’ve been writing much of my life, really. Although in the beginning, somewhere around middle/high school, it was poems about broken hearts and boys. I guess I’ve always had a propensity […]
Claiming my Life – Intention
I’m good at focusing on others. Taking care of other’s needs. But myself – not so much. It’s hard. Requires work, practice, intention. I was tired of feeling weak. Mentally and physically. I was tired of being tired. Sick of feeling depressed, down. And as a result, my muffin top turned into a popover top. […]
Before the Horizon
It’s 4am. Before the horizon fills with light, and I am filled with dread. A thousand little bits of worry and fear. Do you have a child? Look at them. Look in their eyes. What do you see? Light? Hope? Brightness? Wonder, excitement? Peace…God, the Peace. I never noticed the Peace before. And now I miss […]
Beautiful Girl
Yesterday, I met a girl. A Beautiful Girl. I don’t even know her name. But she changed my life. In five minutes, she changed my life. And she doesn’t even know it. The most extraordinary things happen in this waiting room. The waiting room where my son goes for therapy. I used to dread coming […]
Less Judging, More Loving
What do you think someone looks like who suffers from mental illness? Do you think they look like this? In today’s society, our social media streams are filled with all kinds of awareness week notifications. The amount of requests we receive to ‘like this’ or ‘share that’ to help bring awareness to multiple causes can […]
A Day in the Life
No one could’ve really known that retrieving an overthrown frisbee-like disc from the waist high weeds would have set off what’s called a mixed episode or state (mixed states happen when a child is experiencing both mania and depression together). He was barefoot, enjoying a game of catch with Grandpa on a warm late summer […]
How I Didn’t Manage It All
I don’t know how you do it. How do you manage it all? I have been asked this a lot over the last couple of years, since my son was diagnosed with anxiety and suffered severe bouts of depression. While managing through this, I was also working a full time job that required a hefty […]
Filled with Hope
I could feel it the moment I walked into the room to pick him up at school. Sitting on the floor, his back to me. The hood of his sweatshirt pulled over his head. Draping his face, hiding the pain he is feeling. I’m getting better at this now. Detecting when there may be a […]